Sorry for the inconvenience!

          That is what I kept getting from max's delivery's operator and everytime I heard it, the more pissed I got. Why? two things - that is a standard line they were taught to say during times of trouble so I kind of know they do not really mean it and secondly, my food was already an hour and a half late and they break it to me that my order was not placed, and was I willing to wait?!!! And all they could say was, "sorry for the inconvenience!!!"

          I haven't been that angry in a long time.And now that I've settled down and I've been fed, I feel bad for cussing and getting sooooo pissed with the operator. But at that time, it felt like it was appropriate.

         Max's delivery line is 7-9000. I loved them.Take note! Past tense! I loved ordering breakfast from them because they had really good champorado and I do love their friend chicken. But after today, I will think twice about ordering there again. 

         Placed my order at 1120am. An hour after, realizing that they are already late since they do deliver within 30 to 45 minutes, I called and followed up on my order. After putting me on hold for quite sometime, the operator mentions that there has been a system error and was I still willing to wait for my order? In non-fancy words, my order has not been placed. And If they were to place it, it would take another 30 to 45 minutes before it would be delivered. 

         I was fuming mad!!! Every single sentence that came out of my mouth henceforth had the word "fuck" or "bloody" in it. I was sooooo pissed. and everytime they said the lines, "sorry for the inconvenience" I became a whole lot more irate! It is annoying to hear that. And they weren't even planning to send anything extra, or do/give some form of consolation for the "inconvenience". They just kept emphasizing that they already coordinated with the branch and that my order was going to be sent in less than 30 minutes! Was I supposed to jump up and down now that I've been prioritized?! They transferred my call to a supervisor and that is exactly what she said too, "sorry for the inconvenience!" AAAAAArrrrgggghhhhh!!!! 

          What makes me sad about being in the Philippines is that I know this incident will happen again, to someone else. You complain, file a complaint, go out of your way and nothing really happens anyway. Where does your complaint go? Our customer service out here sucks big time. And I am a regular customer. Never mind that! I am a customer, plain and simple. System error my ass! If I never called to follow up on my order, they never would have realized that my order has not even been placed. But will anything happen? will some bigwig at max's call up disappointed regular customers to apologize and offer anything? I guessed not! 

Seeing the world in a whole new light!

          Literally! I once was blind but now I see! I just got my glasses yesterday and it is only now I found out just how blind I was and didn't even know it. I was a dork last night. The better, more appropriate term for it would have to be in tagalog, and that is "mukha akong tanga!" I just kept looking at everything that I look at everyday. The billboards- I can actually read what is on it. The San juan skyline - I can actually see and read the signages of music museum, zirkoh and the other establishments in Greenhills. On my way home, I could see the cars on the roads.I could see the road! Everything was just so much clearer. I wish I had just gone to the optician a whole lot sooner and I would not have had to contend with migraines every single day! If you've got 20/20 vision right now, take care of it. Beats having to wear spectacles anyday! I will post a photo of me with my nerdy look soon. But hey, I am a true blue nerd to the core!

Dreams

Dreams are answers to questions we haven't yet figured out how to ask.  ~X-Files

Dreams are today's answers to tomorrow's questions.  ~Edgar Cayce

Do you ever wake up in the mornings and wonder what your dreams meant? Do you even remember your dreams?  I often thought about my dreams but lately, I would just lie in bed for awhile and try and remember details about it. I try to write it down because I know that one of these days, I will be able to find out its significance. I found a website that sort of translates your dreams into supposed reality. What I did learn from a book that someone is reading is that you can't just translate dreams in the context of the things or objects you dream of. you have to translate it as a whole, with the whole scenario playing in your head. Sometimes the objects, person or animals you dream of, are actually YOU! I dreamt yesterday of a lot of dogs, and puppies, and I had to feed them, and one particular puppy badly needed water. What could that mean? I already have an idea and will work on that. That was just 1 scene. On the same night, I also dreamt of mangoes and that they fell off from my truck. Had to walk back to grab all of them again, and came across mangoes that were perfect on the outside, but hollow on the inside. Others were perfectly half-ripe and half rotten. What could that be about? Im speculating that it could be about opportunities out there. some may pose to be great but will leave me hollow on the inside. Others would be rewarding on one end, and yet leave me deprived on the other. 

As of recent, my dreams, though not recurring, always refer to the same thing. Untapped talents, skills I have forgotten or haven't been harnessing or opportunities I have not grabbed. And I know that! I am conscious of it all. Why? Fear! fear of the unknown. As Jim Paredes sent in an email to me yesterday,"what would you do if you weren't afraid?" Damn! Endless list! What have I got to lose anyway? Everything is already great, nay, amazing, as it is. Things will only get better from here on. I can not imagine what that could be like because I am already currently loving and am extremely grateful for the state I am in. Not to say that I am going to sit in my laurels and just relax! Nah! But to become even more aggressive……If only I wasn't afraid.

Live in the now! I had a long talk with Jim on this one, the last day of our workshop. LIVE IN THE NOW!!! There is no point in reliving the past, or living in the past because you end up living it twice. There is even no point in allowing the pains of the past to rule your life now. You also can not worry about the future! It's not even here yet! And your worries may never happen. You keep thinking about it, and it just might. Why? Because you attract with your thoughts. What you think of the most, is exactly what you will attract. What you will get. Keep thinking about what you don't want and that is what you will end up with. Why not think about, WHAT YOU WANT INSTEAD?! 

Hiatus

         We all need to take a break once in awhile and then come back with a vengeance. That is what I intend to do now with this blog of mine that I have neglected for months now. What prompted me to start again? A lot of things! One being that I have sometime in my hands right now and I also badly want to talk about a very special man in my life - My brother, my kuya James. 

         He was here on vacation for about a month and a half and he left this morning. Went back to the US/Canada. The reason for the duality in that one is because He was based in Canada but his fiancee is based in the US so more often than not, he will be in the US. Anyway he left this morning. That just makes me feel a little down. I wouldn't say it makes me sad because I know he is much happier there with the wonderful Jo taking care of him but I will miss him immensely.

          How times have changed. This is the brother I kind of disliked in my younger years. This is the same brother I used to hide my relationship from when I was still in College. This is the same guy I would have fights with over my boyfriend then. I feared him simply because he was older, authoritative and he just scolded me a lot. Not out of context though. I deserved it. He took his role as the big brother/ father very seriously especially to his youngest, only sister - at least at that time. But now, I do not fear him. I respect him and love him even more than I thought I would. I have forgiven him for that time he made me go hide when we were playing "hide and seek" only to discover after about 2 hours, that they never bothered to look for me in the first place.Bad Kuya! And all those times we would play chess and game of the generals……I treasure those now. 

          I hugged him this morning I hugged him tight. Hugging and kissing is not something my family is used to. We were just never brought up that way. But I couldn't care less. With outstretched arms he summoned for me and I just hugged him tight, fighting back the tears because I knew I wouldn't get to see him for years. 

           This vacation of his was different. We were different. Definitely older, more mature. It was so easy to talk to him. Uncensored, unfiltered, our conversations were like that. I was no longer holding any information back. I actually sought relationship advice from my brother and he acted like a sage with such great insights into the intricacies and complexities (nay…..absurdities) of a man's brain! Thank you kuya!

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            July 10, 2007. The day I turned 29. The best birthday of my life. Count out those that I celebrated when I was 1, 5 and 7 because I do not remember anything from that. But this year was simply the best because I got to celebrate it. I usually don't! I celebrated it with my two kuyas and My boyfriend. The men I love! And if that was not perfect enough, the number of greetings I got from listeners, friends, acquaintances and everyone else was just overwhelming! Thank you Thank you. My radio one buddies did something really really sweet and touching too. Enzo, mark, ella, bea and L.A all came by and surprised Rico and myself with our birthday cakes.Note: Rico, my radio partner's birthday was on July 12. Why was it the best birthday ever? My kuya was home from canada, and so was my boyfriend. A first in years. Celebrated my day from the time 12 midnight knocked in until the very next day. Haaaaayyyyyyyyyy…………..still have such fond memories of it  

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           If you are not on it yet, sign up for facebook…… Just like friendster, and multiply and my space but a whole lot better. Sign up and search for me - gelli victor and you can view my albums of photos in there.  

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          I just found out that I inherited quite a lot of my traits from my dad, more than from my mum. Here i am thinking that I am a walking mini-me of my mum but apparently I am not. I am really a combination of both but those that make me so distinct, are actually from my dad. Like what? I love corn! It's an exaggerated love! I can eat corn every single day. If something has corn on it, I am bound to get it. I go to Galleria for the simple reason that I get corn in a cup with butter and cheese because the craving kicked in. Just found out last night that I got that from my dad. I cooked Beef Nilaga last night for dinner for my kuyas, boyfriend, dad and tita and put corn in there. He wanted the corn And my dramas…… my ka-artehan….those are apparently from my dad too  

          How nice when you are given the opportunity to get to know your parents better.